to change your mind, that’s when you change it.. right?
You all know how much I’ve been struggling to decide which city to prioritize, when what I should’ve worried about all along was which course to do, because suddenly last night while hanging out with the lovely Monica it came to me..
I had a revelation, but too little too late, because it’s not something that’s even on my priority list, because I’ve only just realised that is what I think I wanna do. 3months too late…
I was too worried about where I wanted to study I forgot to actually realize where I would fit in careerwise.
I know not everyone is happy that I keep changing my mind, and least of all me. I really do not want to have to wait another year and maybe even go back to being so insecure I doubt every single bit of myself and my life. And I know some people aren’t happy I’m reconsidering physiotherapy, as it is probably a much better paid job if I get a job than the one I now have in mind. But it really is combining two things I love, so I don’t understand why I didn’t think of it sooner. It’s a popular course at a good school as well so i doubt it’ll be on resttorget either.
But by the looks of it, I will probably go to Trondheim and study physio if I get in, because to some of the people that matters the most that would really make them proud and happy, if I am really unhappy with it once I’ve started, I can always quit, but I don’t think I’ll feel like I can untill I’ve tried it… If i go for that it might become what i wanna do for the rest of my life, maybe…
my list is already set, yet it’s still keeping me up at night, it’s almost 1am and i have to be up for work in about 5 hours… so i’ll try to get some sleep and pray that my thoughts take a break too..
P.s i’m sorry i’m so behind on blogs again, but you can probably tell my head’s been elsewhere. At least I have a good work out routine again now, it clears my head for a little while