the vision Renate have been talking about with the cats is becoming more vivid in my head..
especially now around Valentines day, which i find is a rubbish day, because it only makes me depressed seeing those hearts everywhere in the shops, i mean couples can declare their love whenever they want, they don’t need an entire day just for that.. blaaah.. i know couples like it.. but i’m forever single and i actually hate it..
I mean i am the grey mouse among my friends.. I am the luckiest girl in the world really to be surrounded by such beautiful people all the time..
But fucking hell it makes me depressed sometimes too, watching everyone else being checked out and stuff.. the guy can be ugly as hell, but at least it’s attention right?
i never feel sexy, whenever i try i feel uncomfortable, because i hate my looks.. and if i hate it, how can anyone else like it? oh well..
I think i’ll be forever single tbh, not only do i seem to be good enough, i’ve been single for so long i am getting picky..
yeah i know you’re gonna say that if you were a lesbian or a guy you’d do me Renate, but you’re not.. so… we’re just as far really..
what’s the deal with guys, most of the time we call them assholes and whatnot, but we still want them..
Gaaaaaah, i don’t even have time for guys with all this unistuff hanging over me..
but valentines day makes me seriously depressed.. i might have to drown my sorrows with chocolate and get immensely fat.. (more than i already am)
i might feel good for a few minutes..