so yeah it’s saturday again,
I guess after only a few hours of sleep it is easy to get thoughtful.
Went out yesterday with the girls again, it was cool.. Had a singstar preparty like on Tuesday, rocking down the house, went out and met Pete again, he had a new shirt haha..
I am sat here on the floor, by radiator which is getting colder because I think someone turned it off, brrrrrr. I know for a fact Renate is feeling hungover, luckily I am blessed with only being tired every single time we go out… *knock on woods*
I am glancing over at the books on my desk and I feel my heart racing, I am getting stressed by the thought of everything I have to do this year.
I am so not really for all of this, for the 3rd and final year, to figure out my next move, NOT at all..
It is scary to just be a part of the journey but not knowing where it is leading.
You would’ve thought almost 23 years on this earth would’ve provided some sort of destination ideas or whatever.. NADA.
I am actually really really scared, because I feel like I’m not going anywhere, and I’ve probably wasted 3 years of my life, and such an amount of money on a degree I won’t use for anything.. *sighs* maybe i’m slightly sentimental because i’m tired and stuff.
But to be honest i am starting to see things in perspective, and it is scaring me..
Besides my grades have gone proper downhill, so if i don’t step it up, i’ll not only have a useless bachelor, i will have a rubbish useless bachelor.. which is kinda worse..
have a meeting with my dissertation tutor on tuesday, might have at least some sort of a direction for that, which hopefully will be a relief..
anyway i’m just rambling now..
so whatever.. not like i am asking anyone to care..
I might just stop blogging all together, seeing as i don’t have much to write about, nor write much interesting stuff i guess..
and now i’m whiny, ok definitely time to stop…